My name is Sara.  At the age of 40 I decided to take a good look at my life and think about what I really wanted and needed for a change in my life.

You see, I'd been wife and mother for almost two decades, devoting all my time and energy to the needs of others, organizing family life and making the way smooth for my husband, who makes a good living in the computer industry here in Austin. Things have gone well for us, but as that big number 40 approached, I began to feel I was lacking something. The kids were old enough to be on their own, and having the luxury for time and thought, I realized that I needed something more.
I had spent a number of years distracting myself from some very basic needs, but the plain fact of the matter is that my husband, though he has the big brain and the good job, is sorely lacking in other areas. I am not sure he would even know how to satisfy me, even if he had the right equipment for the job.

I've done well by him, and he has always taken pride in the fact that I take care of myself and still look very good, but I also began to notice the looks I was getting from other guys, mainly my son's friends. I have to admit it made me feel very desirable to know I could have that effect. Not that I would ever act on the impulse with one of my son's friends, but it made me think about my situation and what was lacking even more.

We have been together so long, loving each other (in our own way) and I did not really want the marriage to end. I decided if this was going to work I needed to talk to my husband. I needed to make him understand I needed more from him, from our marriage. The odd thing was, my husband was aware of the problems too. We talked about my desire to have a sex life again, how once or twice a month was not enough. I was afraid to tell him, but finally I told him that I thought I needed a bigger lover to satisfy me also. He admitted that he didn't have the right stuff as far as equipment goes. I was surprised by what he was saying. But I must say this, I had new respect for him.

He poured his heart out. He told me about all the pressure he was under. He felt he had to be the one in charge, making all the decisions at work and at home. He needed a break. He had considered going to a mistress to experiment. That was shocking to me, that my husband needed something more as well.  But then he said he thought there might be a solution where we could stay together and help each other. I could get what I needed, all the men necessary, as long as he could watch. It turned out that he was tired of the way things were, too, working all the time with no relief and all the responsibility. So we came to an arrangement:

He would work for me, give his money to me and give me complete control of all financial and sexual decisions. In return, I would let him watch me with the men I take to our bed every day, and I would make sure they all know how very small he is, and that he is watching every move. I measure each man to show him how much bigger they are. We set up web cams around the bedroom so he can see it all with a keystroke from his laptop. It wouldn't do to have that on his work computer! And I make sure he sees everything...

They are never here when he gets home from work or when our children are at home. So now we have an arrangement that suits us both.

Maybe you reached a point in your life where a certain dissatisfaction came over you, and you want to talk about it with me. It's been two years since my husband and I made our first deal, and almost a year since my husband made his own needs know to me. I get it. I would never have thought that I'd be where I am now, but here I am.

And here you are. So call me... and tell me all about it...